What the Heck Does God Want From Me?

Have you ever asked yourself that? Have you ever asked God that? Chances are if you have followed God for any amount of time you have asked this question more than once and probably with tears in your eyes and a quiver in your voice.

You know what God wants from all of us. Everything. That is what He wants. He wants everything that is in our life to come under His reign. He wants every dream. He wants every good idea. He wants every emotion. He wants every ambition. That is what He wants nothing short of that will satisfy Him.

You may ask why? To be honest, I am not sure right now. We understand what we have been taught and what we read. We understand that He wants to take those things that we most value and then give them back to us. Does that make us feel better at the moment? The only people who answer 'yes' are those who have actually given anything to God. They are the ones who are just ignorant and immature. Following God costs you. I don't care who you are. It will cost you that which is most important to you.

The real question becomes, do you really trust God? Because it is going to hurt and hurt bad when you give up stuff. You HAVE to trust God. You have to trust that He will never hurt you, let you down or leave you hanging. That is real faith. I love the name and claim it bullcrap. Real faith is walking away from those things that you truly value and not just because those things are 'bad' those things are good and great things and still up you walk to the altar and you place them before God, cry for an hour and then ask Him what He wants next.

He will demand that you give everything up. He will demand that you give up both choices. He will not only ask for you to give up one thing in exchange for another thing. (Choose this so that you don't lose this. . . ) He will ask for both of those choices and leave you sitting on nothing but trust in Him.

Why does He do that? Again, we can trust what we have been taught. But sometimes it isn't really any solace. Sometime you just have to stare up at God and ask 'Why?" And you know what He will say in that moment? Probably very very little. But don't fret He will speak and when He does - you will be ready to hear it and it will change your world.

Following God is not easy. This part of it sucks, absolutely sucks. But we always must remember that whoever seeks to find his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. The Great Paradox of the Bible.

God I will follow You. Especially when it is not easy. I will persevere. I will remain tenacious in my approach to You. I will trust You when you take everything from me. I will trust You and serve You and love You. No matter what. Period. AMEN.